Sunday, June 27, 2010

How Much

Another morning with a tear soaked pillow
Another day of drudgery
Another morning of pasting on this fake smile
Another day of acting as if everything is fine
How much longer must I wear this mask
How much longer will I have to wait
How much pain do I have to endure
How much hell do I have to tolerate
I love you with all that I am
I love you with all that I ever will be
I love you till after the end of time
I can't let these hounds of hell chase me anymore
I can't let this pain consume me any longer
I wish to cut out my heart
Just to see if it's still beating
I can't live like this
I can't live....
I need you with me
I need to be at your side
I need you
So, how much....

So Happy

I can still smell his scent on my skin
I still taste him on my lips
I still feel him pressed against me
I can still hear his heart beating
I can still hear him whispering in my ear
His voice melodic poetry
His touch like heaven
His taste is that of the Gods
So caring, so loving, so sweet
He makes me want to make myself better
He makes me want to change my life
He makes me want to feel this forever
He let me know what happiness is
Not only of body,
But also of mind, and spirit
If i would be granted only one wish,
It would be to be happy,
Like this forever
I love myself when I'm in his arms
I feel beautiful when he looks in my eyes
To this wise love,
I have to say
Thank You!
You make me realize I am more
You make me think
You make me feel
But most of all
You Make me happy!
I Love You!

Forever Lost In You

Brilliance in the eye of beauty
Simply caresses the soft fragility of love
The magic of your sensuality
Longs for the gentle kiss of your lonely soul

Enraptured by it's soft ecstasy
I fall into the swirling pools of your eyes
My heart cleansed of it's sadness
The captured purity of your love overpowering

Intoxicating me with your aura
I slip into peaceful slumber
As imagined arms encircle my thoughts
And elevate my senses

You are the love I have imagined
The dream I have sought
The perfection of time personified
And I am forever lost in you

My Life For You

Another torrent of razorblades
Long overdue
Another torrent of tears
For what cannot be
it always comes to this
In the corner alone
Chisel in hand
Broken life on the floor
I beg for the chance to crawl
Through the shards
Slitting my wrists
My throat as I go
It wasn't my hand which
Guided the destruction
Your loving embrace
Drags me screaming to meet
I cover my ears
Scream for it to stop
As a million tiny diamonds
Scatter and shatter at my feet
Like rosary
And it always comes to this
In the corner alone
Chisel in hand
Broken life on the floor

Run, red river, flow

I'll Always Fucking Hate You

Everything is in fast forward
I watch you from afar as you move gracefully
Then sucking the blood of those who are around you
Leaving them lying in their own puddle of rose tinted tears
Moaning for you, craving for you,
Hoping for your love in exchange of their existence

You flipped your velvet onyx hair, Howled, growled
And showed your snow white smile
Stained with the color of death
And you spread your so=called angelic wings
Striding away or another victim
And I'll always fucking hate you

Razorblade and Scars

Here I lay, my love
I know that you're gone and won't be back
But I can't accept that your with someone
I'm craving for you, all of you
Wishing you were still here beside me

This razorblade in my hand reminding me of
The agony I felt when you left me
And these scars on my wrist makes me realize
How much I love you, My Sweet

For one last time
I would love to play with death again
I would let her chase my soul
And flirt with my life

The razorblade sliced deep in the fresh wound of my flesh
Blood spilling like a fountain from my wrist
Darkness overcomes my sight
My spirit dances away from my body
Death gave me what you can't
Immortal love and life

Deathly Romance

The red tears placidly fall from the excruciating wound
That you gently sketched on me
Using my back as your living canvass
And your pencil was the cold knife enveloped with rust

The liquid diamond that my glass eyes painfully shed
Reminded me of dead moments brooding in my head
Moments of you trusting me with your love
The love that I longed for when I was breathing

Slow motion movies gently glide through my memory
Like fantastic patterns etched in my fate
Infinite passion suddenly fade
And your razorblade kisses slashed through my existence

All the red tears mischievously escaped through my wound
And life rapturously turned its back on me
Death is chained to me
Howling and growling for my doom

They Dance

Over the hills and far away
The grandest of all dance will occur
This is the dance of morbid harmonies, exquisite strides
This is the dance of angels and daemons

Angels in velvet silk and daemons in leather
Dance together on the glowing dance floor
Like playful shadows gliding in sublime rhythm
From hypnotic notes created by the orchestra

And oh! The orchestra and the choir!
The elusive rhythm and the playful scales of notes
In consort with the graceful shifting of voices in rapture
Drawing closer to your dead passions

I would love to watch this forever
I find harmonious bliss in it's horrid beauty
I would dream for this fantasy
Until the last moment of my immortal life

Unspoken Words

In this corner
Memory of two strangers
Into them will wade
Such a razorblade kiss
Sending them eternal bliss
Vagrant, powerful emotions
Over the cold face of the earth
Under the spell of the crimson moon

Animated passion with
Nameless characters
Dreaming of rapturous existence

Is there a reason for this
Let's just recall the memories
Or are you sick of those moments
Vague untold stories
Ended with such an ecstasy
Youthful smile of a coward
Onto the eyes of its never-ending life
Unable to utter the three simple words

Forever Ours

Heart to heart
Truth or lies
I'm forever yours
And you're always mine

I remember the days
When we were alone
Walking together
With not one care for the world

As we stood there waiting
For the moon to bring night
Black rose in my hand
As a gift for new life

The romance, the passion
Your heart throbs no more
The pale face whitens
Red tears stream down slow

Sudden rifts of laughter
I'm surrounded by fear
What happened now?
Why were they here?

You stood there fainting
Your body was shaking
You falled on your face
With the last word of "sorry"

I fall on my knees
Cradling you to my breast
What have they done
You were dead

I embrace your cold body
Your chains on my neck
And now I know everything
Blade sliced your neck

I can't let you go
Not ever, not now
Your blood on my arms
I wished you were alive

I sit there with you
Through the hours and night
Silently crying
Feeling the anger inside

Deceiving and grieving
They try to take you away
As I screaming
Trying to awake

Did I deserve this nemesis?
It's totally my fault
It could have been me
But your life was more

There's nothing left to say
But you are in my heart
Your mysterious eyes
You onyx locks of hair

Pale white face
With full black lips
Your sharp pierced eyebrows
And a smile eclipsed

I was bonded to your body
Like we were meant to be
You standing from behind
Embracing me in your love

In this eternal darkness
I descend in despair
Despite the fact of life
I know that you're there

Mind Expression

She sits by in velvet
And rich black lace
A cape over her shoulders
A smile on her face

Her forest green eyes
Satin chocolate lips
Skin so pale
She doesn't speak

Her stare tells the story
Her nightmare, her dreams
How she's been treated
Her love was deceiving

Her past was a vain one
Stained forever in her mind
Her eternal screams
Bring pain to her eyes

Her heart filled with light
Eternal night
On the inside she's dead
Dead from the anger
Beaten and bled

Tear streamed cheeks
She's been living in lies
What has she done?
Did she deserve to be alive?

As she sits there, crying
I'm forever beside
She's my Angel of Darkness
My mind expression

Your Gifted Life

Ebony Night
Silent...its fall
You back me against the tombstone
Pleading me to show
What life could be
Without the feeling what it's like to live away from the light
So I torture myself thinking
Should I give you the way of undead
No longer can I hold
I feel your heart beat in me
I take every breath of yours
It's hard, its painful
I don't want to see you in pain
But my control...at loss
Your vermilion stream seems so unreal
But yet so full and rich
I can't resist it, I must take it
I embrace your neck
Walk you around
And put you gently on the ground

Monday, June 21, 2010

Alone

I hurry to talk to him
But when I come I see nothing from him.
My heart sinks but I keep hope.
He'll be here later I tell myself.
My friends ask how I am,
Great I lie, Can they sense my sadness?
And if they can why can't he?
The minutes then hours tick by.
Still no word from my love.
The feeling of wild beasts slowly ripping
Through my chest and eating my heart begins.
But when he finally comes,
He says I Love You and I Miss You,
And the heavens open and shines
Down upon my dark existence.
I shed tears of relief and joy
Then he's gone again!
I'm thrust into darkness once again.
Doesn't he know how i wait for him?
Doesn't he know what he means to me?
He's my heart and soul, life and death,
torturer and medic, heaven and hell.
What am i to him?
Does he not think of me as i do him?
Awaiting every second just for him. If he did,
Would he not be rushing to speak to me also?
So i wait in this deep pit of despair
In love, confusion, pain.
waiting... lost, lonely and alone.

Consumed

Everything I do I think of you
Every thought is of you
Every motion
Everything
I close my eyes and
I see your face
Smiling at me
Smiling for me
Thinking of us
Lying together
Basking in the sun
Enjoying each other
Thinking of our life together
The many years together
In complete bliss, realizing
I am totally consumed by you

The Nearly Forgotten

Where is the woman I used to be
the Little Miss Sunshine whom,
when wherever she walked
the flowers grew and blossomed,
the grey clouds would part
to give way to beautiful blue skies
sunshine and fluffy clouds
The woman who all of God's creatures
would flock to her feet
the birds singing to her
the butterflies playing around her
the sun shining upon her
wind blowing just to touch her flesh
to blow back her flowing hair
Yet . now, all that remains
is scorched earth in her footprints
annihilation, destruction
the life being sucked out of every living thing
that comes into contact with her
the skies turning black, angry
and the wind blowing mercilessly
I reach down to touch my flesh
and it is cold, creeping, pale
my dark eyes crying tears of blood
blood that has long since been fresh
All I hear is the sound of my heart
barely beating, trying so hard to pump
the thick, black ooze through the undead
I want her back, the woman
who walked in your love
who was your every thought, need desire
I miss her almost as much as I miss your love
it was your love which
drove her, inspired her, warmed her
She needs you back into her realm
I long to be touched by you
to be in your favor again
to be wrapped in your
strong, loving, protective arms
keeping me from all loneliness
despair, anguish, emptiness, nothingness
Please, My Love...Come...Save Me

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Daemon Out of Hell

You're the daemon risen from hell
came through the broken ground
on your own
repulsive enough to look into my eyes
and cause plaguing torture
my shockingly thin arms spills out blood
it flows along the pale freezing skin
due to my internal hatred and sadness

you search and cry out for love
and throw me to the hard, uncaring ground
I can't bring you back and never will
I don't care, just as long as you
somehow disappear forever

Betrayal

And I stood there
Waiting
Waiting for you
Happy thoughts and you
They flooded my head
I watched as the shadows passed
Lay on the tombstones
Flowed through the glass
I stood there waiting for you to come
Time passed and I fell down
Tears of blood streaming down
How could I've fallen?
For your sick sad jokes
You've done it again
And I still don't know
Is it because of me?
Or is it always you?
How could you torment me?
I've always trusted you with my life
I lived just and only for you
Your betrayal seems unfair
So I will die too

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Planned Seduction

It was a planned seduction
I'll admit and say
I never knew you would be so tired
after such a long work day
You walked into the door
brown eyes shining
wrapping me with your arms
and gave me a long slow kiss
My body sizzled,
the friction of hard verses soft.
At that point I was already almost lost
I fixed you a meal
fit for a king
sat beside you,
saying all the right things.
Chicken Alfredo, salad, bread sticks
and then there was the special dessert
packed full of chocolate.
I sent u to bathe
while i cleaned up.
My heart beating double time
thinking about how to make you mine.
You thought to protect me
make sure of too many things.
Your heart battled with your mind,
you wanted to wait
give us more time
Time,
is not something we are guaranteed!
So, I had to take matters
in my own hands
and just be me.
After your bath
I lead you to our room.
You looked so cute
smiling with that twinkle in your eyes.
Brown, soft and tender
almost pitch black
You watched me and grinned.
I asked you to remove your shirt
you looked a little worried.
You thought I had more in mind
for that little piece of time.
I massaged warm oil
across your back,
worked out every muscle and tendon.
Moving down then back up
around and around
soft then harder.
What did i have planned?
For now,
was simply only your pleasure.
I moved to your feet
taking off your shoes,
let my fingers rub deep and slow
not missing even one little toe.
You said it was wonderful
and that i would spoil you,
but I was the one spoiled!
I kissed your feet and sucked a toe
then went up your leg,
to massage them both.
Your skin was warm,
firm to the touch
i had never loved doing this shore so much.
It was a gift,
and offering of love.
Afterward,
I moved up to your side.
You held me close
still trying to hide inside
mind and heart,
you battled with.
My best interest always in mind.
Baby Boo ,
my life is almost half gone
I haven't the time to wait.
We talked and kissed
then kisses weren't quit enough.
I was starved for your gentle touch!
I love you so very much
I could see the love
in your eyes too,
and i knew it was right.
we had to let go
and give this love a try.
I melted within your arms.
Your slow fingers everywhere
touching me as never before.
No one and nothing
outside our world,
our room,our door.
My body your canvas
your hands and fingers
the gentle brush
bringing pleasure with every touch.
You sought entry
and i was so in the zone,
it was a place
i think I had never known!
Hard meeting soft,
you gently rocked
ever so gentle
ever so slow.
Fire spread over
glistening bodies,
wet with pleasure.
Oh my baby boo,
I died of pleasure!
Thank you,
you took me to heaven!
Drifting back to earth
upon crashing waves,
to gently ebb back into life
everything was right.
Thank you baby
for this and every night!

Sweet Release

taking the broken shard
i slowly cut
oh that feels good
come, come
my sweet essence of life
drain from me
yes, more
mmm you're so beautiful,
my wonderful torturer
burning me, from your mere existence
coursing far too long through these veins
run faster out of me
let this torment end
i feel death's shroud begin to cover me
come Mr. Dark
faster now
all is going dim
can't focus anymore
lethargic, limp
yes, my sweet red river,
pool around me
"why" you ask?
because i loved you and you didn't see
you said you loved me
did you really?
would you recognize it,
if you looked into my soul
could u stand to look at my dark soul?
would your eyes catch fire?
would you run screaming
at the intensity of my love for you?
you wouldn't care!
so sweet death take me now!

Come To Me

I stay up every night looking at the sky
I talk to the stars and I wish I could fly
to come to you, to hold you
to tell you how much I need you
I know you are far away
but you are always in my mind
in my heart, in my soul
you are inside me and I can't let you go
no matter how hard I may try sometimes
I can't forget you, I can't say goodbye
you know that I love you
please my love,
try to come to me, to forgive me
I swear without you, I am nothing
You are my light and my way
please forgive me and come to me
now and forever I love you!!!

Dear Mother Dear

We haven't spoken for years, but I want you to know
I forgive you for...
How you told me you hated me
and didn't exist
Locking me in the closet
Beating me till I lay unconscious,
blood streaming from my tiny body
Teaching me how to pray, like a mantra,
"God, let me please die this time"
Learning what not to be
I forgive you because
You are evil incarnate, hate and weak
I am a beacon, love embodied and strong
No more will you haunt my dreams
No more tears will I cry for you
No longer will I live with your installed fear
And for the last time
I Love You Mother Dear

Death Of Me

As I lay here on my bed
I think of all the pain that you given me
I think of all the hatred that you made me feel,
I slowly creep down stairs,
and grab the thick sharp knife
Cannot stop me now for after this, it is all over,
Tears of sorrow spill down my cheeks,
but its the hatred that keeps me going,
I put the knife tightly in my fist
As it glides slowly down my wrists,
all the blood pours down my arm
and all the pain suddenly drifts away,
My mind goes blank, I have no fear,
for I only want to disappear,
It's all too late.
You cant stop me now,
i wonder were I will go after this ...

Apocalypse

Like a needle to the vein
Apocalyptic destruction brings joy and pain.
Looking around to see
the cataclysmic loss of life and home.
The preacher left behind
walks around, gone insane long ago.
The blood red fire
Apocalypse is the great show of beautiful destruction.

Paper cuts and razor blades
Souvenirs of the life long lost in the black glades
The wide-eyed masochist
Walking around with a smile of the sweet pain he loves
Sin has become
The friend of every man and woman
Paper cuts and razor blades
What fun they seem to have become.

Apocalyptic prophet begins
to bleed from the eyes as the end begins
Destruction of humankind
the rise of the daemons from below.
Rise, angels of death
take part in the sport you love.
Apocalypse has come
Bloody thine scythes with the blood of men.

A Portrait of Red Roses

deep red lines
placed artistically
on a canvas of paleness
wan and waning
the red is a welcome color
to a drab existence
splash a little metallic silver
here and over there
followed by some more red
strawberry kisses
oh so sweet
dream like fantasy
a field of bright red roses
a little more red
here and there
no more needed
the portrait is finished
a portrait of suicide.

Within The Darkness

Through the darkness comes forth a light
a beacon in the all encompassing night
I followed the beacon until I found you
sitting on the bench
As I walked it was then I saw you
bathed in moonlight
while the darkness surrounds you
playing with the shadows on the ground
I listened and it was then I heard you
telling me to come closer
beckoning, luring me to stay
as I walk forward I feel caught by the power emanating from you
luring me like a bee to pollen
hoping to get a taste of the sweet nectar of my honey
The sweet scent of fear mingled in the air
I felt the drifts of a predator in the wind
however I couldn't keep myself from wanting to enter
enter a world of dreams and mists of alternating worlds
the shadows of night slowly drifted over us both
leaving only the light of the moon and stars
darkness had fallen over my soul completely
but for once in my life i had become whole
and so in the end this is where i stay
in the arms of the predator

Too Far To Touch

My distraught Angel,
Saddened by Burden of Failure
Which does not lurk there.
My beautiful kingdom that I could never depart from.
My passion for existence or bereavement as it may come.
My mourning from Joy,
Do you Really know?

Winds may gust through a thousand towns
Before I would reach you.
Centuries would pass
And my heart would stay surviving for your love,
Clenched in the broken cages of bone and decay,
It would remain there waiting
But you will never come.

The rain doesn't cease in the world I live,
but somehow I see the immaculate sun shining clear
Motionless to my eyes,
burning like the devotion I feel for you in my heart
But too far to touch.

Voices

There are people talking in my head,
when I listen close they whisper.
Talk of nothing real, almost all surreal,
but always something that I just cant hear.
Dodging looks down the street, when they talk to me,
when I whisper back, when I try to drown them out.
Tell me what to do, make them go away,
they're all that I've got and that's a disease with no cure.
Cant you believe me now?
Do you see what it is?
Distant voices echoing, screaming in my ear,
telling me to burn this place and bottle up my fear.
Don't touch me please, I'm dying.
My souls burnt up, cheeks raw from crying.
I'll do whatever it takes, how long will it take?
I wake up staring at these walls, make friends with dead shadows.
I hear these voices in my death,
they say I'm only pretty when I'm crying..

Girl All Alone

She sits in her dark room
with nothing but a shiny sharp blade
Her pain inside is becoming unbearable
Shes finding it harder to live

Deep down shes suffering
both sad and hurt
Yet no one knows, no-one cares
Shes in this land of hell alone

There's no one to hear her cries
There's no one to hear her call for help
So, she sits, sits and cuts at her flesh
The deeper she goes, the more it begins to hurt

The tingle of the blood as it gushes out
Her emotions flood out just likethe red blood running down her arm
Her life is running out in front of her
Perhaps now she'll go to a better place
where the people really do care

For her heart has been broken
Shes all alone
Now shes dying
To a better place she's gone

Love Poem Of A Goth Woman

I would watch the sky with you
Scan the stars for super novas
Trace castles in the clouds
Count the degrees of the sliding moon.

It will be warm with a breeze
That draws us closer.
The world will melt
All sound but our breath, stop.
Time cease.
We will be a universe born
Building empires from atoms.

We will know us
There would be no doubt.
Some primeval memory
Will wake us
Take us dreaming.
The curtain will rise
The crescendo build
We would fall spinning
In white light, then silently
Like leaves
We will fall asleep
Honored and placated.

Wishful thinking.
The truth will be stinking
Of stale alcohol.
thick black cloud
Block out the sky
you will fall unconscious and
I would say goodnight.

But I would crave
That edge of madness
That blissful fall. Deaf
blind, and dumb
Hovering in mortality.
If I am cut I will bleed your blood.

So like some bloodlust hunter
I stalk your footsteps
Paces behind you unseen
You turn to see a landscape
And me a dot, camouflage against it.
It has to be you
Hunter stalking hunter
Circling around one another.

Then suddenly
At some preordained signal
We will meet nose to nose
And begin our kill.
It could take years
Whittled until
There is no me, no you
There is an us
A rotting festering matmoss.
The doors will close
And we would be imprisoned by
Our suicidal love.

So instead I give praise to the superficial
The wine drunk flirtation
Before the taxi home.
I eat chocolate alone
And practice a passionless art

Nothing invested, nothing lost
There is no cost in loosing
A worthless treasure.
Something inferior and disposable.
Fickle and uncommitted
Uncomplicated, yet dull.

Forgive me for not responding to
Those pleading, passionate eyes.
I could not afford the trauma of your love.
For the sake of both our lives.

A Life Touched

Hold me close
I'm falling
Don't let go
Help is what I'm calling.

Can't lose faith
Be strong, No failing
The hugs I wouldn't trade
They send me sailing.

Difficult to dream
The mind so smothered
I know you feel it
Your words could never clutter

A splendor to experience
One soul exposed and uncovered
One heart so truly unique
One life touched, entirely by another.

So come into my arms
Let us share our souls together
As only two in can
Come, let us share each other!!

Just Love Me Tonight

I want to melt in your arms,
As you hold me close and tight.
Make all my dreams come true,
I want all of you tonight.

I want to feel your touch,
As I lay here next to you.
Feel my passion rise and rise,
As you do the things you do.

So lay here beside me,
It's been way to long.
Lets turn out the lights,
And turn each other on.

I want to cuddle with you,
Lay in your arm just right.
You're all I'll ever need.
Darling, just love me tonight.

Under The Moonlight

Across the Moonlit drift
I saw your shining eyes
You sat down beside me
And you never told me lies

You showed me what it is to love
You showed me how to smile
You gave me back my soul
I had lost for quite a while.

You gave me all I ever needed
And gave me even more
You gave me a safe place to be
I am forever grateful for.

Across the Moonlit drift
I saw your shining eyes
You sat down beside me
And never told me lies.

Ascend

O my merciful God,
Please ascend me to heaven
out of these demons claws!
Take me into the arms of my love
that you have chosen for me
to where I belong!
I surely shall not survive
if I have to live in this hell
without him much longer
please my kind and wise God
deliver and bring to me
my sweet soul!

Time and Time Again

Time and time again I allow you to do it
Time and time again you strike me with your sharpened dagger
Time and time again the cold, black fluid seeps
from what used to be my heart, thick and smelling of decay
The blood continues to flow from the wounds you gave to me
From where you once loved to live
Time and time again I allow you to kill me
Time and time again I allow you to hurt me
Time and time again I allow you to stab me
with your dagger of so-called love
Time and time again I sit here waiting for you,
longing for you, praying for you
Yet time and time again you refuse to take me into your consideration
Time and time again I await any word;
a simple hi, I'm OK, I miss you
Even go to hell would be something
At least I would hear from you
Time and time again my heart is shattered
broken, left bleeding for you
Time and time again I wonder why I'm in this existence
Time and time again I tell myself
soon you'll come to me
then pain will be no more
Time and time again...

How Much

Another morning with a tear soaked pillow
Another day of drudgery
Another morning of pasting on this fake smile
Another day of acting as if everything is fine
How much longer must I wear this mask
How much longer will I have to wait
How much pain do I have to endure
How much hell do I have to tolerate
I love you with all that I am
I love you with all that I ever will be
I love you till after the end of time
I can't let these hounds of hell chase me anymore
I can't let this pain consume me any longer
I wish to cut out my heart
Just to see if it's still beating
I can't live like this
I can't live...
I need u with me
I need to be at your side
I need you
So, how much...

The Time Has Come...

Many surround me
Many say they love me
I know it's all a lie
They may love me at the time,
But only while I feed their needs
This kind of love is a lie
Love doesn't hurt the ones you love
Love doesn't cause pain
Love is for fools
I'm the biggest fool of all!

My life is in shambles
I want to run away
But the beast will only follow me
Just waiting to rip out my throat
I long for relief and release
I'm finished being used, being weak
Passive no more

For these who so-called love me, I say:
Fuck you posers!
Fuck you fakers!
Fuck you and your needs!
You don't even know what love is!
Your kind of love is a lie!

You used me, tormented me
Now is my time
For reckoning, for retribution and revenge

I am the monster under your bed
The creature in your closet
The beast lurking in the bushes
Your succubus
The demon in wait
The banshee on that dark lonely road
The faery you disrespected
The cause and reason for all your fears
Your worst nightmare

You wronged me
And now I'll own you!!

Lament of the Living

The eyes were drained
the heart was bleeding
her ears were withered
from all of the screaming
Years of torture
locked away with a key
hidden from vision
the truth was her plea.
Reality was dawning
the cloak was erased
a twisted glare of hatred
left on her face.
Her feelings were there
the world was waiting
her distorted truths
were being negated.
All of the rage
she built up within
had to soak through
where to begin?
Her suffering poured
and ripped flesh away
they had to know
all of her pain.
Her feelings of anger
fleeing their core
destroying them all
until her heart bled no more.

I Love You Forever

Every time you tell me
that you love me,
you breathe new life
into my soul;
You make me feel
like I matter,
and that I've finally found
my happy-ever-after.

Every time you tell me
that you need me,
you put new meaning
into my existence;
you make me feel
oh so important,
and I've finally found
another reason for living.

Every time you tell me
this is forever,
you fill my heart
with pure love,
and you make me believe it too.
And I want you to know
every time I say I love you,
I mean forever.

I Wait

You are somewhere in my future
Your soul is already inside my heart
these things I know because I wait
seeking, feeling, reaching within
there is a missing part, so I wait
Is it possible you are my soul mate?
Were you chosen for me at heavens gate?
I wonder and I wait.
Could you be waiting too?
Not knowing what to do?
That is why I wait.
I'm just like a little girl wishing on a star
that you were here with me... and not so far,
so I have to wait. closing my eyes at night,
wonderful dreams take flight.
Love is there but, I wait.
I look out of the window at all who pass by;
I try to be strong I try not to cry
and I wait...for the man I love!

My Phantom Lover

I have a lover
he comes to me in the night
wishing through my window
in a mist of iciness
I look into his eyes as he hovers above me
and I'm completely under his power
my body shivers under his glare
waiting in fear and anticipation
I feel my hands grasping the cold iron headboard
and without touching he removes the blankets
I feel the coldness of his body without his touch
and i feel the heat emanating from my body to his
he slices in between my breasts with his fingernail
and I hear my moan of pain and pleasure
my voice is echoing in the darkness
as I feel his cold lips kissing away the blood
i look at his face and i see my dark blood on it
my blood in his hair, I'm strangely excited
as his hands trace my body i rise to meet them
I once again hear a moan escape from me
we are no longer in my room but in a meadow
though oddly silent, and fog covered
I realize I am forever his and in his power
i am afraid yet enthralled with him
when he has had his pleasure with me,
iIam returned to my own bed
I am bloody and sweat soaked, wet,exhausted
yearning for more and more
so I now I leave my window open every night
awaiting my phantom lover

Ode To My Sweet Moon

Oh my sweet goddess, sweet moon
Your beauty bewilders me
Leaves me awestruck
As I gaze upon your purity
Your power, your wonderment
I find myself repeating
The words that have been uttered
from beginning of time till now
Oh my sweet moon,
My sweet Diana,
Goddess of night
And consort bright
Draw down unto me
Your power and wisdom tonight
Your beauty fair
Your light we share
I thank thee for all you bestow upon me
As I will, So mote it be!
My sweet Goddess Diana

Limerick

There once was a girl who carried a rose
She would tie it with ribbons and bows
When people would ask her why
She would just smile and reply
"Because it reminds me of my love
I swear, he was sent from above"
And when the tears began streaming
In her pain, felt like screaming
She would clutch it to her chest
Smell it's wonderful scent
When she saw how the petals fell
She would say to herself, "what's to tell,
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Now it is broken....just like my heart"

Mystery Woman



You look into my eyes and see things you don't understand
Am I a mystery? I think not
You look at my smile,
You search for something that isn't there
Am I a mystery? I think not
You listen to my voice, and call me an angel
This angel is flesh and blood,
Not a doll to be put on show
You see...I'm not a mystery
I am me

I am flesh and blood
Touch me, I wont break
There's no mystery here
Caress me, feel the warmth
I'm not a mystery, I am Woman

Here I am...desires abound,
Relentless and sensuous...yours to caress
Like a flower, make me bloom
Don't stop, not even to rest!
No mystery here, just a Woman.
I feel the weight of your body against mine
Your heaving breath upon my skin
The most gentle touch on my thigh,
The soft nibbling on my breasts
Moving slowly in a downward motion
Now you see,
I'm no mystery, I am YOUR Woman.
I am all Woman.

I Think Of Him


I think of him and I smile
My heart races
My pulse quickens
I catch myself thinking of him
In all the things i do
In every song I hear
Every voice I hear is his
I imagine his touch
His taste, his scent
I wonder if he is doing the same
I know he must be
Though we have never met
I can sense his warmth
And I have to ask myself
Is this what love feels like?
Let me know, My Love!